day 3: what brings me genuine joy lately

lately, i love to rediscover things in life. like;

playing badminton. 

somehow i found joy to play it every weekend now. to move my body other than built strength with home pilates i tried from youtube. to meet strangers in the court, to just people watch. because human are complex that i'd like to just observe how they do, or feel, or other humanly things. i've lost my way to feel, and i would like to know how to do it again. 

or ordering good old wonton soup. 

i have this specific love for chinese food and it's like... undeniable. when i'm down, or sick, or it's a rainy day, i'd like to order any chinese food and today i ordered a good old wonton soup. it warms my heart because it feels like home. some place that out of my reach these days. 

or listening to the tortured poets department. 

another album that i could replayed it from top to bottom without a skip. back then (or i am still?), i was proudly a 1989 deluxe album fan. the pop bible, they said. the it album. but two years ago 'til now, i always found a new day with a new favorite from this album. i remember the first time i was blown away with songs like florida!!! or down bad. or crying the shit out to the prophecy (who's not?). i—might be—had a moment with the newest album. but until i knew that you liked that one song, i remember that i had never play it again. and now i'm coming back to loml because i'm still not the real tough kid. 

or when you came back around.

it's been a while. it's been a year. and still, no other word could describe how i feel.

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03.05.26; 10.18