notes about heartbreak, viii.

but why did i think that he could cure this madness,

when he's becoming another pain of mine?

notes about heartbreak, vii.

it's hard to be woman

people expected you to be "silent" about how you feel

because they said, "cewek harusnya dikejar" 

or like, "yang maju duluan harusnya cowok"

and you've drown on your unspoken feelings

choking, i might say

because that's how i feel right now

sometimes all i want is just tell you how i feel

i don't care if it feels like losing or winning

all i want to feel is free from this feelings 

if you'll walk away, then it's an answer too, right?

not having you, is an answer... too. 

i'm looking through you

while you're looking through you phone

and then leaving with somebody else

notes about heartbreak, vi.

i had all these things i wanted to write

mostly about you

but since then, 

i don't have words to finish it

as the way i don't have any word

to describe how i feel

about you 

and this keep going 

until you find somebody else 

and will we keep on doing this

until one of us finally walked away?

notes about heartbreak, v.

it's funny when i think about hoping that this will hurt you like it hurts me now...

i forgot that it hurt you a while back. because i did left you behind. 

maybe it's just karma, and your wishes you wished back then... happens to me now.

but i still wish that you feel the pain too.

notes about heartbreak, iv.

for all of the sins i made in this lifetime

loving you was the one 

i most definitely regret about 

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02.05.25; 21.21