i forgot to write a birthday letter for you.

it was a sunny day further west than the ground we met

the sky was blue, unlike my heart that bloomed

like the flowers that kissed the spring air 

wind took my hair dancing

with the roofless car that drove away 

from the place that we called home

wasn't it beautiful to feel alive

even though it's far away from things we've known 

it's not a romantic love that's taken my conscious

to leave everything behind

but the future with the idea of happy-me

drove myself to the shore that we've dreamt of 

but maybe it's only me that has this urge 

to live a better life

and for a long time now since we said goodbye 

it's time to go to places without you in it 

it's the time to write new poems and not be sad

then i saw your story in social media

and since that, i knew

i've moved on 

// i forgot to write a birthday letter for you. 

22.03.25; 8.13pm

day 5: flowers trapped in spiderwebs

it was rainy day when you stood in front of my small porch

i couldn't defined what the reds were for—

either the lunar new year that i celebrated all my life

or it's just us, celebrated in that lovey-dovey day 

i always told you that i couldn't take care of any living thing

and i laughed my ass off when you brought me 

a bouquet of fake roses with chocolate bars 

you understood—

and therefore, this so called independent girl fell in love

i could pictured the roses everyday in a cute vase 

and enjoyed my chocolate bars every time i got sad

like today when i realized that it's been ten months

since the last time i saw you right under the street light

because you couldn't stand the fact that you'd called it off 

if it's in front of my parents' house 

—cause you were their favorite one

i'm still up sometime between midnight and early morning 

staring at your red roses that's been a home to invisible spiders

—because all i see was their webs but couldn't find them

like your ghost that's been haunting this space 

yet i couldn't reach your fingers anymore 

like i used to 

// once upon a valentine

05.03.25; 10.07am