the death of us (in my mind).

sunday morning, mourning

tuned in the song, lost in the memories 

put on the band-aids, hoping 

that all the what-if's i whispered to the wind

stranded somewhere in the java sea

a wide open distance kept us apart 

like the unknown feelings we held on to 

wished that someday that never came 

wished that we could be 

but never been 

i once said that 

at least we're under the same sky 

vast universe that keeping us

on the grounds of different cities 

even when we're in the same one

all the signs didn't want to align to our fates 

the red lights didn't change over the nights

you don't even have to ask for it anymore 

at least the scars stays

of dreams you've embroidered

with lies and past tenses

of love that you've proudly told to everyone

and no one's understood 

the lullabies of our death's date singing 

the light's off, and we walked on our own

as our paths that never ever crossed

yes, we lied to ourselves all the time 

and finally i give up 

because i finally understand that

this was something that's only on my mind 

// i'll be alright, it's just a thousand cuts. 

30.09.25; 12.09pm